chibi-umm 1st day @ work..

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BIG surprise.. i didn't fall asleep during maths lec today, and i actually understand the chem lec, mostly.. haha
Anyway, kylie asked me a qn out of the blue that kinda left me in deep thoughts: do you want to be loved or do you want to love somebody?? Both our answers were that we want to be loved.. what excatly make us think this way?? i thought that loving somebody is a very enjoyable thing, that its an experience that most people would like to have..
Hmm,i feel that loving someone is great, but its very tiring;the worst scenario being that your love is not returned at all. Perhaps thats why i wanted to be selfish and greedy(?) ,its true that being loved by someone wholeheartedly is way better than providing that love. haha, i must remember to ask the rest what their answers are.
i think that my attitude towards my mum today was quite terrible.. perhaps its cos i'm super tired after wushu today, and when i got home, i realise that i forgotten to inform her that i will be home for dinner, which is totally my fault.. the result, i had to choose between instant noodles or the mishy mashy rice that my aunt cooked. its not that bad, excet that my taste buds don't agree with it. i sorta snapped at her, cos i was rather impatient but i cooked the noodles myself ok.( so dun throw rotten eggs yet) but not being too disrespectful though. haix.. i always want to improve on my temper, but things just don't work out that well.. well, look on the bright side, she didn't scold me, so i doubt i wasn't that terrible huh. With such an unreasonable daughter, my mum is also quite pitiful..
Sometimes, the sense of emptiness just creeps up upon me, even though i'm surrounded by my family and great friends. i'm not even sure what i am missing in my life, so how can i fill that hole up?? Must things always come to an end?? if i could, i wish that time can stop still.. but then again, how are things going to improve if they are at a standstill.. baka. haha..