haix... why did niang single me out for counselling??? i'm perfectly fine.. sob sob,, haha.. anyway.. look at the definition below... it'll help you clear your doubts about me sia.. lol.. i'm sane, not insane..

Mental illnesses affect the functioning and thinking processes of the individual, greatly diminishing his or her social role and productivity in the community. (http://www.who.int/mediacentre/factsheets/fs218/en/) haha.. see... i'm not like that lo.. i can think... can produce stuff( like horrrible tests and work).. haha

haix.. this is a rather hectic week.. and i realised, i have not update any academic qualities about me.. and my pdp achievements and all is not updated.. anyway.. i thought the teachers are supposed to do this part for us??? haix.. nevermind.. i shall wait for the weekend to do...

hmm.. i'm not sure why i still feel like having chocolates lately... haha, maybe i should go to the shops and buy some home...

yes, i'm rambling.... oh.. and i still need to complete tai tai's autograph book, and suzzie's one too.. haix.. hectic life.. no wonder my brain cells are dying off

hmm.. to go or not to go... its such a dilemma..on one hand, i'm rather er, say excited?? abt it but on the other hand.. i'm also bit sian by it... whats more, its bit ex sia... esp for the er.. settings??? haix... what to do....

hmm... they say two parties with similar characters are bound to have clashes... as they can't agree on whats being said and all.. in a working environment.. i think thats aboslutely true.. who can stand a stubborn, obsinated peer?? arguements would have been plentiful i think.. perhaps even over the type of fonts to use in documents.. lol.. then what about those relationship relations??? whether its mother and daughter, father and son, siblings... or even just simple friends to friends to complicated stuff like married couples and all??







hmm.. thats an interesting and very complex study.. no wonder i'm so fascinated by psychology... lol... die.. if i really become a pscho, won't i be going around just trying to study other ppl's behaviour and actions?? think my peers would go crazy.. thats if they have not already been crazy.. haha.. anyway..

uploaded two photos.. one of me sleeping in class.. i din mean to.. just too boring.. and one of just half of the looney royales..

just logged in for a short while before lunch time is over.. lol.. the whole loooney royales are in the hub.. just checking their mails and blogs.. for once, i really felt like i'm living in the tech savvy era.. haha.. though i still remain a comp idiot...

well... after the previous post, i realised tht i din post up the table of 'compare and contrast between you know who and you know what.. haha.. alright.. its _______ and B&J.. buten.. after typing out the long entry for the previous post... i've no longer the heart to post up the table.. in case someone's heart really really get smashed into pieces... oops...

anyway... i've began to sort out a study schedule today.. and haix.. either the govt is really testing our resiliant to stress.. or they really trust our abilities.. wait.. isn't it because they trust our abilities thats why they wan to test how far we can go before we snap?? i'm not really making any sense here i think..

hmm.. wat else stuff can i crap about...well.. i dread monday, wed, thurs and fri... you should know why.. i wonder what else drama i'll be getting...hmm.. and i really wonder when my limits will really be broken by those drama stuff..haix..well.. do you think i'll be getting any quotes from _________ in class??? where they might be from my entries?? hmm.. well, the suspense is worht waiting for.. haha oh.. i may also be getting a gallery soon.. got the idea from tai tai.. haha.. oops.. i'm a copycat

hmmm....well, think this post may be rather offending to some.. and perhaps it may show how narrow minded a girl can be but then, if i don't get it off my chest.. i'll be like tai tai, who'll die of er... something???

PS: if you feel that you will get offended, don't scroll down. cos i'm quite harsh, and will not leave any 'face'..and its not a pleasant read.
PPS: this is my blog, where i'm allowed to say my thoughts. if you're unhappy, so be it.. just dun read my entry...
PPPS: the warning has been given.. if you are really a sensitive person... just leave now...
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seriously speaking, is there anything wrong with ppl who try their best to improve their grades?? i thought it was an accepted and even the norm for students to seek help from 'external' sources ( meaning tuition) other than their teachers in schools.. from the day we began our education in primary sch, to our sec sch days, which one of us did not sought tuition help in any of our subjects?? must there be such a huge reaction from your sch teacher?? or is it really due to one's inferior complexity that one will react in a certain way??

lets take a closer, more moderate view about tuition... in general. and lets just hav a look into my experiences in sec sch..when we go for maths tuition, sciences or Chinese tuition in the past, do the particular subject teachers got all offended?? i doubt so. all they might be concerned about, is whether the tuition teachers teach you methods not recognised by the examiners, which mean we might be penalised, where our grades would suffer as a result. but then again, such concerns are justifiable. when i was in sec 3,4, i had both GP remedial from my excellent sch Eng tutor, as well as GP tuition. i even openly discussed with my Eng teacher what we are doin in the tuition class. did my eng teacher get all emo, and started to be sarcastic, or say, being a hypocrite?? nope. she really did not. and i'm not saying this from a bias point of view. she knows that our eng is rather abysmal, and she don't mind we are receiving more help, as long it really benefits us.

so why is that we are receivin such emoish stuff now?? from one of our sch tutor just because we seek help for the subject from 'external' sources?? why is it a bad thing that after our tuition, our grades did improved.. hell, i improved like about 10 marks?? i received about 45?? for promo last year, managing an E grade. this time ard, just after about er, 4-5 mths of tuition, i scored about 54.4.. getting a D grade... and what does that implies?? MY TUITION HELPS AND IT BENEFITS ME!!! of course i'm glad about the improvement. furthermore, two of my frens who also went for tuition, had become the top and the second top scorers in class for this subject.. is that really a bad thing?? when the ranking for our class in this sub was read out( where we managed to squeezed into top 10), there was no smiles from the teacher.. ok, thats still alright, but __________, din even bothered to acknowledge the top scorers efforts.. i mean, realistically speaking, aren't teachers supposed to like, clap for them, say something that they did put in efforts??

but, what really irks me is, do you need to be so sarcastic abt ppl going for tuition just because we care for our performance for the A's?? quoted: 'i don't understand why ppl would rather pay $180 for crash course' and something again along the lines of ppl benefiting from external help... haiz.. pls, we seek external help because we wan to be benefit from it... why else will we waste our money and time then?? anyway, the crash course is $160.. get the facts right man....but then again, ______, might not be referring to our crash course.. haha..

aside from those unwelcome, non constructive criticism, may i ask what exactly are we doing in ______'s class?? it was _______ who said in the past that if we don't care for the lesson, we should go sit at the back row, quietly do our stuff, and don't disturb those who wan to study, esp those who din received any EXTERNAL HELP.. thats what we did... and look at those sarcasm again.. and then, after spending our money to purchase the notes, do we really really go thr them?? the blanks in quite a number of different sets of the subject notes are still blank, where in reality, we are supposed to go thr them together with _________ in lessons. _______ said he/she don't see the need and don't really wan to follow what other tutors do in their lessons, like er, going thr a particular worksheet and show us exactly this is what the examiners are looking for.. personally, i think thats a lot more helpful than what _______ himself/herself has been doin in class. talk without action is dead. one can go on about how much effort one is putting in, but where's the substance to follow thr??

furthermore.. i'm super amused and surprised when ______ said things like er, he/she is rather disappointed that those who went for ______'s own sch crash course din do better in the exam...( i've a real mc to prove my absence--sick la!!)...hmm.. but since i never go for it, i can't say how useful or beneficial it is la..

i can count the number of times during lessons that ________DIN digress from the topic ON HAND or from the things _____ supposedly wans to do. i'm alright with some laughter here and there but there should still be a limit right?? BEN&JERRY is doing fine with such digression. in the tuition class, we do digress, but, its still somehow linked to our topic. for ________.. i think you need to go to the ends of the universe to find the links. jokes are fine.. but then.. its just... my vocab fails me...

i dunno why, but it does seems that the more ______ tries to act in this emo way.. the more _____ is losing the heart of his/her students. why must there be a clash between tuition and sch lessons?? we are doing our best to listen in class.. its just that we realised its a waste of our time.. if we are allowed to not attend _______'s class.. i wonder how many will really go..

anyway, i told u ppl that its not going to be a nice entry.. so if u're offended, well.. i told u to leave at the very very start le ma... so i'm not taking any responsibility..hehe.. by they way.. if _____ happnes to coincidentally reads this.. you can just tok it straightforwardly with me...no need for any er, sugar coating that you piled upon your sarcasm, which i feel the need to mention, is really makin u look like a hypocrite, in and out..i'm already 17, going on 18..i do know what's my purpose in life, and what i'm saying. some may say i'm irresponsible, bias about my views, too extreme, but hey, moderate views are boring.. opinionated views are interesting, as long as they are substantiated by facts.. which i really hav .. ^_^

haha.. looking at the weather now, i'm having a carving for ice cream..

oh ya, i fail to mention something just now.. the idiotic, senseless, yucky, useless GST hike.. casued the prices of comic to increase fifty cents!!! haha,, yes, its not really alot by some standards.. but..(sob sob) once you start buying more comics.. the increase really burns a larger hole in my pocket... haiz... that means i have to save more le.. maybe cut down on my food expenses!!! ( is that even possible??)

haha.. its been a super long time since i updated my blog.. well, i just didn't find the time to go online.. haha.. sorry ppl..

there will be another change in my life after the 26/7... but dun fret, i believe it should be a good thing to happen.. hopefully the peaceful days can return and last...

just started an autograph book recently and i discovered that i'm still very primary sch standards... haiz.. i still start with the name, add and all those stuff.. haha... never mind, i can write another one AGAIN.. cos its my book.. hehe.. hey, when another person sees my entry, they would just be reminded of their primary sch days k.. so its a good thing.. haha..maybe later i shall go print out some photos too.. hmm, can paste there.. lol.. i love piggy's entry,, the pig is very cute..

haha.. i cut my hair too... only last week or so.. hee, my fringe is short.. very cute. i like to pull at it while i'm doing my work nowadays.. lol.. but lele and woodpecker said that i looked childish when i tied up my hair in that short, minuscule ponytail... haha... nevermind, i'm still young.. its good to be youthful!!

haiz, its after JCT, where all of us will get back our results.. hmm, its too disgusting to mention anything about my horrible results. but. but. i really feel that i need to mention something about my GP.. haha.. i actually got a 51.5!!! i mean, it may not be very high or good enough for some, and maybe there will be some ppl who's scratching their heads now cos they dun see why i'm so excited over the marks..but.. the big deal is.. its the first time i've gotten 51.5 since my jc times.. haha.. thanks to BEN & JERRY... i really think that those who had received BEN & JERRY's help, their GP results did improved alot this time round. all hail BEN& JERRY.. haha.. hopefully, i can continue to improve all the way till A'Ls, where i won't make any silly mistakes..

hmm, an embarrassing thing happened to me on sun, 8/7/07... i fell down on the stairs!!! fortunately, its the very last step that i slipped on, so not that bad i think. i shudder to think about the outcome if i slipped on the top stairs.. will i roll down?? maybe.. haha.. and i'll be in the hopsital le.. lol. and ppl were like looking at me... so embarrassed... haiz.. and as a result, my tailbone is hurting now.. anyone knows how long it takes for a bruised tailbone to heal?? hopefully it can completely heal before the sickening NAPFA's.

speaking of which, i really had no idea how i am supposed to pass my 2.4km run... i'm already panting after only like 1 round?? die.. i hate running.. yucks...

time is really passing by super fast.. about 15 weeks more, i'll be sitting for my A'Ls le.. hmm.. after the JCT's results, i'm really not very encouraged... except for gp( a little).. and about 2 more weeks, it'll be the one year demise of Gigi.. hmm.. at this point, i dun know what i'm feeling.. will i cry on that day?? will i be ultra sad?? or will i just be going through my day as per normal.. its scary no matter its which type of circumstances.